Many a times there comes a time in our life when everything just seems to be right..!!! All right.. All correct.. & all in its way ! Contrary to this statement, many a times we also find something which is not going at its pace as it should have..

Life has made its turn.. My GUILTY is no more !! She was more than a Dog...she was never a dog.. she was like a member, a family.. Till date I could not come out of her death. That she is no more. I am still in a state of denial, which I can feel it. I don't believe that she isn't here ! I still believe that she is there and she will come out immediately when I bang the ball on the floor! Maybe if I pen down my feelings, can I actually believe that she isn't here..

I want to cry out aloud, but cannot. Everyone was crying out aloud, my brother who loved her ! My aunt..all. But me? Look at me.. Have I become a cold hearted human?? People say that many a times certain situations make you immunised ! Am I?? Have I??

I remember the day when my brother and I used to give food to her mother post-birth of her puppies, outside the room, & when she went out, we used to hurriedly close the door so as to cuddle her puppies.

Rani grew on my lap. Her dead body was there too.. But I had not cried a single tear infront !

We went to bury her. She was still looking soooooo cute !!!! She was fond of me.

I LOVE YOU STILL & WILL NEVER FORGET YOU ! PLEASE FORGIVE ME !

..no OnE kNoWs ThE ReALiTy Of OtHeRs..

Its hard to explain to people why do they react in an odd manner sometimes. Circumstances make them behave in that way. They are bound to behave in such a manner ! They cannot explain it to others as to the reason behind their sudden behaviour.

Some Pain that they carry alongwith...some deep sorrows that they cannot come out with. Cannot explain it to them, who do not understand !

Cause if they speak...the whole world will fall apart !

He cannot say anything..why how for what ???

But all that he can say is that he has something within him that forces him to keep quiet.

He has this within him & always will keep it within himself.

It will die with him.

And no one will ever come to know.

He knows people will be angry..will be ashamed..will even stop talking..take him to be the rudest of the RUde !!! But he will never speak a word..N E V E R..

"Till then I will be the worst person ever... who has committed a grave crime..I am ready to face such a statement too...But am not ready to break down their Lives..!!! Never..."

- My dear Ol' Friend...am always there for you...you are very brave and even if the world never comes to know but I know what you have gone through. I Love you very much and I will love you always being at your side. You do not know how lucky I am to be your friend. GOD will never do anything bad to you..take it from me. You are HIS favourite child !!!! Yes you are !