Tuesday, January 18, 2011

..LiFe AfTeR DeAtH..!!!!




Ghosts, Satans, Angels, Demons, Vampires all awes me.. Are they real??? Or its just another story.. But on one thing I strongly agree..and that is 'LIFE AFTER DEATH' Fascinating.. All the protestants may protest against me... But people has the right to express their feelings..!! So am I doing.. Life after death or in English language what you call Reincarnation is a debatable topic. It has its own pros and cons..!! Scientists are still working out to find the truth! With many Near Death Experiences (NDE) to study on, the reincarnation studies are turning out to be positive. Many instances have shown that people has had similar NDE experience. They often say about going through a dark tunnel with a light at the end ! Other experience narrations tells us that could actually see their own body as their soul was out of their body. One patient at a hospital even had told his Doctor whatever was done on him during an operation operated on him. He was unconcious then..due to anaesthesia..

Dr. Kenneth Ring, a brilliant young professor of psychology at the University of Connecticut, "published a paper in the Journal of Near Death Studies (Summer, 1993) concerning near-death experiencers who, while out of their bodies, witness real events that occur far away from their dead body. The important aspect to this phenomenon is that these events seen far away are later verified to be true. Experiencers not only witness events from great distances, but they have been documented to hear conversations between people at the same events. Conversations such as these have also verified to be true. An even more fascinating phenomenon occurs when the experiencer actually appears in spirit to someone, usually a loved one, during their NDE and it is verified to be true by the experiencer and the loved one. It is evidence such as this, if scientifically controlled, that can provide absolute scientific proof that consciousness can exist outside of the body. A scientifically controlled NDE that can be repeated which provides such evidence would be the scientific discovery of all time. However, science does not yet have the exact tools to accomplish this. But, science is coming very, very close. This kind of evidence and others provide very strong circumstantial evidence for the survival of consciousness. "







Some outstanding experiencers as told by Dr. Ring :


Rev.George Rodonaia underwent one of the most extended cases of a near-death experience ever recorded. Pronounced dead immediately after he was hit by a car in 1976, he was left for three days in the morgue. He did not "return to life" until a doctor began to make an incision in his abdomen as part of an autopsy procedure.




An anecdotal example of evidence that a person's consciousness leaves and returns to their body during an NDE comes from the research of Dr. Melvin Morse. Olga Gearhardt was a 63 year old woman who underwent a heart transplant because of a severe virus that attacked her heart tissue. Her entire family awaited at the hospital during the surgery, except for her son-in-law, who stayed home. The transplant was a success, but at exactly 2:15 am, her new heart stopped beating. It took the frantic transplant team three more hours to revive her. Her family was only told in the morning that her operation was a success, without other details. When they called her son-in-law with the good news, he had his own news to tell. He had already learned about the successful surgery.
At exactly 2:15 am, while he was sleeping, he awoke to see his Olga, his mother-in-law, at the foot of his bed. She told him not to worry, that she was going to be alright. She asked him to tell her daughter (his wife). He wrote down the message, and the time of day and then fell asleep. Later on at the hospital, Olga regained consciousness. Her first words were "did you get the message?" She was able to confirm that she left her body during her near-death experience and was able to travel to her son-in-law to communicate to him the message.
This anecdotal evidence demonstrates that the near-death experience is a return to consciousness at the point of death, when the brain is dying. Dr. Melvin Morse thoroughly researched Olga's testimony and every detail had objective verification including the scribbled note by the son-in-law.

A must see about people born blind can see..



Are they lying ?? Or are they true.. Hard to say as we do not believe on certain matters until and
unless we don't experience it ourselves. Reincarnation if proved by scientists can open up our minds to such an extent where we will never be scared of death, crime will come to a fag end as we will know if such instances are proved in reality then its not far off when scientists will prove the existence of GOD...!!!

Hope I live till that day...!!!!

Monday, January 17, 2011

I DON'T KNOW WHERE I AM LEADING TO !!!






Kaise bataayein aur kisko bataayein, 
Ki kaisee thee woh muskurahatey, 
Jinme zindagi ki ujaaley they, 
Kaise thee woh nigaahey, Jo is dil ko choo leti thee, 
Kaisee thee woh khamoshiya, Jo kahaniya sunatee thee, 
Kaise they woh haath, Jo ab in haathon me nahin hain.. 
I always had the moment of my life. I used to love myself..my attitude towards life.. The smile that I used to place on my face. I Loved my way..my goal..my smile.. 
But sometimes somethings happen in our life to which we have no explanations as such...  My life has had many irony in it..not that I am the only person to have faced with so many troubles..
There are people who has faced many many more troubles than me.. I CAN SALUTE THEM AS I KNOW THE FREQUENCY AND DENSITY OF MY PROBLEMS.
By experience I am much elder to many people..be it family troubles, peer troubles, love life troubles, and any GOD damned troubles...just name it..and whoo hoo!!! I have it all.. 
This heart has felt all the pressures..rather..all kind of wounds..this mind has felt all kind of troubles..this brain has been able to sustain all kind of  pressures  that life has to give..
And standing on this day I can (proudly/sadly) proclaim that the amount of emotions that I had..all are gone for the better..( I guess!) My heart, my mind, my brain has immuned itself from any external agents (immunogens!!!) 
I keep quite during any kind of tussles that arise from any factor-be it a small hanky panky business with a friend or with that with a family member. Sometimes keeping quite does not mean that you are suppressed down to the bottom , 

Mohabbat palkon pe kitne haseen khawaab sajaati hai.. 
Phoolon se mehakte khawaab..
Sitaron se jagmagaat khawaab.. 
Shabnam se barasti khawaab.. 
Phir kabhi yun bhi hota hai ki palko ki daaliyon se 
Khawaabon ke saare parinde ud jaate hain..
Aur aankhein veeran si reh jaati hain" 
I had wished for many things in life..Success..which was and will always be my ultimum, happiness of my parents, relatives and friends..and joy for all.. And if there was any thing that I truly asked for myself was true love.. Its joy, happiness, a partner to be at my side during my moments of thick and thin.. During childhood I used to dream of Him.. childhood gone and now the dream is slowly becoming fade..!! Today its no more than a story of a UNICORN !! a fairy tale - lovely to hear but far away from the truth. I have always been true to the people I truly consider as my close ones.. may be my fault ..cause everytime I find them lying to me..It shatters my trust, my belief, my faith!


Tumhara naam meri sanso mein basa hai 
Tumhara naam meri tann badan mein 
zindagi bann ke rehta hai
Sun sako to suno 
Ke in fizzaon ke honton per bhi tumhara hi naam hai
Aa sako to aajawo ke meri saath yeh fizzaon bhi 
Sadiyon se tumari interzaar me hai

I have never been untrue to my relations..cause when I was in love I was true and pure to my relations
I have been very loyal to every situations..then why did life take such a drastic turn??
Why did everything break up when I had built a castle of my dreams! - all washed off and smudged by the waves!!
The days my mind was in turmoil was terrible! It had sleepless nights..the days were torturous! the evenings were 
depressed! Everything was not at par! not right..! Something was bad! Something had to be done..but the saddest and the worst part was that
I did not know what was to be done!
 


 Zara Zara Si Baatein Teri Mujhko
Yaad Aati Hai Mere Dil Ko 
Tadapati Hai Raato Mein 
Zara Zara Si Baatein Beete Lamhe Le Aati Hai
 Tasveere Si Ban Jati Hai Aankho Mein 
I still remember the times that we had spent. The moments that we had shared. The argument that we had! Everything! It brings a smile on my face when I remember all that knowledge and gyaans that I had shared with you !!
There were times when I just was a silent spectator..was always you then who used to speak on and on about every single thing in your life which used to make you think..which used to make you cry! I just listened ! I used to love those days..



Samunder ki lehre, Apni saron pe jhuk ke, 
Taaj sajaye, Itlati huyee, Sahilon ki taraf, Badhti hai..
Sahilon par chataane hai, Lehre chaknachur ho jati hai,
Aksar, sapne bhi, sachhaiyon se, takrake yuhi, tutte hai, 
Magar dil woh kambakht hai, ke phir bhi Ummeed karta hai, 
Shayad Kabhie, shayad kahin..  
My dreams My faith My trust My belief all had shattered! Do not know if it can ever be mended! But all I know is that I TRUST THAT ALMIGHTY LORD !! And I know that he will someday or the other bring in happiness and peace of mind that I have always craved for or maybe my sister will be correct in saying...

"That someday will never come..
its only in our dreams thats everything seems to be perfect..
....in reality no day is a perfect day and no one is a perfect human being !!!
So enjoy being not perfect...that's life !!!!"

And finally a beautiful song to end with..a song sung by Alka Yagnik :

Saare sapne kahin kho gaye.. 
Haaye hum kya se kya ho gaye.. 
Dil se Tanhaai ka dard jeeta 
Kya kahein hum pe kya kya na beeTa.. 
Tum na aaye, magar jo gaye.. 
Haaye hum kya se kya ho gaye..  

Tumne humse kahin thi jo baatein.. 
Unko dohraati hain gham ki raatein.. 
Tumse milne ke din to gaye.. 
Haaye hum kya se kya ho gaye..

Koi shikva na koi gila hai..
Tumse kab humko yeh gam mila hai... 
Haan naseeb apne hi so gaye.. 
Haaye hum kya se kya ho gaye..

live life in the best possible way..think that you have limited resource which slowly expires as time passes by .. so make full use of it 
and enjoy it the way you should !!
LOVE YOU LOADS !
SMILE ALWAYS !

Tuesday, January 11, 2011

Being IMPERFECT has taken me to HELL !!!! A crime that I have committed...!!!


“I'm an average girl, and sometimes I wish I could be more than that: to exceed excellence. As the days seem to go on endlessly, I await the 'someday' I've always been promised. That 'someday' when things are supposed to be perfect... the 'someday' when I find my place in this unforgiving world.”


"tomorrow never comes...the past gets in the way...I'm stuck in here today!"

Sometimes I feel like running away from here..but my thoughts of my parents always pulls me back...but circumstances..needless to say..created by me..pushes me again and again.. Am not God...am not perfect...like every other girl I'm imperfect..and will always be..I have a mind which does imperfect calculations...but people think it has to and will be working a super computer!!!! It take pressure all the time..Like in Indian langualge we call it 'faltu' (unnecessary) tensions all the time. I HATE IT when it makes 'faltu' calculations..so as to go to such an extent so as to hurt others. Seriously speaking I dont have any problem if I fall into any kind of problem which I have to handlle on my own..But it hurts the most when I realise that I've taken in someone else with me.. Don't have any words to express how I feel.. I feel that I should be punished ..punished by the ALMIGHTY above..!! In the court of law..I SHOULD BE HANGED TILL DEATH !!!

Feels disgusting at times..at myself..anger prevails and laughter vanishes from my life !! I do not like to cry..rather I hate it from the core bottom of my heart ! Disgusting...my GOD ! Feels like someone is keeping on tickling me for about many days and my hands are tied ! Feels like a ghost is around waiting to kill me...and I can't do anything else other than watch!

To the people out there I want to tell something from the core of my heart and my mind...This girl is lost, gasping for breath or supposedly dead! Never to return again...never again.. She is totally gone...! But she knows that she will not let the person within go away..She will work for others as she has been doing, but never will be doing anything for herself..nothing at all... All I want to say that I've never been untrue to anyone of you or have lied..always have tried to share everything because I considered as my own..and not to make someone jealous! otherwise I would not have said some things to you which I never should have in my whole!

And yes...one more thing, may be not the last..

IF I BREAK DOWN OR AM A BROKEN WALL..DO NOT COME TO RE BUILD ME!!!
I'M STRONG ENOUGH TO REBUILD MYSELF..AND YOU WERE RIGHT ABOUT YOUR DECISIONS OF NOT HURTING YOURSELF AND BLEED..I TRULY APPRECIATE YOUR THOUGHT!
THANKING YOU TREMENDOUSLY..

Saturday, January 8, 2011

MY LIFE..


You will know love when the mind is very still free from its search for gratification and escapes. First, the mind must come entirely to an end. Mind is the result of thought, and thought is merely a passage, a means to an end. When life is merely a passage to something, how can there be love? Love comes into being when the mind is naturally quiet, not made quiet, when it sees the false as false and the true as true. When the mind is quiet, then whatever happens is the action of love, it is not the action of knowledge. Knowledge is mere experience, and experience is not love. Experience cannot know love. Love comes into being when we understand the total process of ourselves, and the understanding of ourselves is the beginning of wisdom.
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~ J. Krishnamurti
from his talk in Madras, Feb. 5th 1950
Taken from www.beautywelove.blogspot.com



Wondering whether am confused or not..whether I love you or not..but after some instances I know that you will be there for me forever..

I don't know whether you can feel that I love you or not but yes I know you love me very much leaving all that confusion part behind..I feel it that it is true love because..

“For it was not into my ear you whispered, but into my heart. It was not my lips you kissed, but my soul.”

Judy Garland quotes


You were the person to understand me so perfectly..I feel very safe there in your arms..I feel all my pains gone when I am holding your hands..I feel away from this whole wide world when I look at your eyes..I feel hypnotised..I feel you say.. "..do not worry am always there for you..and no one can ever harm you once you are there with me.."

You have accepted me with all my troubles..with my present ..with my mistakes which are truly grave..I never wanted anything to hide from you..I want you to prioritise every single thing about me and then take the right decision..I know I was wrong that day..If I would not have wanted..nothing could have happened..But I do not know..I WAS ACTING LIKE A GOAT !!!!

I do not follow my own blogs the great ones which told everyone to love yourself and all other things..I know am wrong...rather I was wrong..I AM SORRY..ekdum DILSE..

Do not know whether I can sustain myself or not..or whether at all you will accept me or not..but today I know that am calm down inside and can handle any hurdle now..NOW THAT I KNOW THAT I LOVE YOU.. and I really do..

You are a sweetheart and always will..whether you will be there with me holding my hands or not..but I'll cherish all that fond memories that was and hopefully..will be there...forever in my mind...



"I don't pretend to know what love is for everyone, but I can tell you what love is for me; Love is knowing all about someone, and still wanting to be with them more than any other person, love is trusting them everything about yourself, including the things you might be ashamed of, love os feeling comfortable and safe with someone, but still getting weak knees when they walk into a room and smile at you."
-Anonymous.







All that I know is that I LOVE YOU FROM THE CORE OF MY HEART!