MY LIFE..

You will know love when the mind is very still free from its search for gratification and escapes. First, the mind must come entirely to an end. Mind is the result of thought, and thought is merely a passage, a means to an end. When life is merely a passage to something, how can there be love? Love comes into being when the mind is naturally quiet, not made quiet, when it sees the false as false and the true as true. When the mind is quiet, then whatever happens is the action of love, it is not the action of knowledge. Knowledge is mere experience, and experience is not love. Experience cannot know love. Love comes into being when we understand the total process of ourselves, and the understanding of ourselves is the beginning of wisdom.

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~ J. Krishnamurti

from his talk in Madras, Feb. 5th 1950

Taken from www.beautywelove.blogspot.com

Wondering whether am confused or not..whether I love you or not..but after some instances I know that you will be there for me forever..

I don't know whether you can feel that I love you or not but yes I know you love me very much leaving all that confusion part behind..I feel it that it is true love because..

“For it was not into my ear you whispered, but into my heart. It was not my lips you kissed, but my soul.”

Judy Garland quotes

You were the person to understand me so perfectly..I feel very safe there in your arms..I feel all my pains gone when I am holding your hands..I feel away from this whole wide world when I look at your eyes..I feel hypnotised..I feel you say.. "..do not worry am always there for you..and no one can ever harm you once you are there with me.."

You have accepted me with all my troubles..with my present ..with my mistakes which are truly grave..I never wanted anything to hide from you..I want you to prioritise every single thing about me and then take the right decision..I know I was wrong that day..If I would not have wanted..nothing could have happened..But I do not know..I WAS ACTING LIKE A GOAT !!!!

I do not follow my own blogs the great ones which told everyone to love yourself and all other things..I know am wrong...rather I was wrong..I AM SORRY..ekdum DILSE..

Do not know whether I can sustain myself or not..or whether at all you will accept me or not..but today I know that am calm down inside and can handle any hurdle now..NOW THAT I KNOW THAT I LOVE YOU.. and I really do..

You are a sweetheart and always will..whether you will be there with me holding my hands or not..but I'll cherish all that fond memories that was and hopefully..will be there...forever in my mind...

"I don't pretend to know what love is for everyone, but I can tell you what love is for me; Love is knowing all about someone, and still wanting to be with them more than any other person, love is trusting them everything about yourself, including the things you might be ashamed of, love os feeling comfortable and safe with someone, but still getting weak knees when they walk into a room and smile at you."

-Anonymous.

All that I know is that I LOVE YOU FROM THE CORE OF MY HEART!

GOOD BYE HURTS !!!

If saying goodbye hurts so much, why do we say goodbye? Because it hurts so much more to keep holding on to something that isn't there. Like you're hanging off a ledge and someone is jumping up and down on your hands but you still can't let go. Like when you're little and you're being tickled...you shout for it to stop because it's torture, but then you go back for more, because somehow being tickled makes you feel safe and special. Holding on is like that...but the torture is painful...and it doesn't make you smile. That's why we're supposed to say goodbye. That's why we're meant to let go..

Why do we do it then ? When we know that there are so many happiness waiting for us? Maybe because we fear the future.. Maybe because we feel the pain when we think about the special person in our life that we so dearly feel as our own.. That is the intoxication that blends with our soul.. and then we feel the pain and the feeling makes us proud of ourself..that we had loved a person so dearly..but without any boundations..

Feeling lonely is a way to be with yourself..A way to love yourself..A way to empathise yourself..To cry along.. To have a best friend along...YOU !!

You become the best philosopher ever.. giving recommendations and helping out people with a terrific wonderful solution.. But alas!! when it comes back to you...??? You fail so badly!!

I have no regrets for being lonely even that I have so many friends to be with and who are with me during my days of thick and thin.. The hollowness that have been created after so many many years have never been filled up..so

I have decided to fill it with laughter and smiles.. so that people who loves me can atleast smile at my smile..!!

"You hug him good-bye like it's nothing... While all you want to do is hold on forever. But you let go, smile and walk away. Then cry all the way home, because you know it will never be the same. Because, try as you might, you can't make someone love you. Sometimes you have to let them be free. And letting go... That is when love hurts the most of all.."

I will miss you forever..do not know whether I will stay here with you physically or not..but will always be present mentally..But today I promise you one thing..the day you need me just close your eyes and call me..I will be there with you...and you will find me just beside you..physically..!!!! I PROMISE..!!!

And now a qoute to end with..

"Sometimes there are things in our life that aren't meant to stay. Sometimes change may not be what we want. Sometimes change is what we really need. And sometimes saying goodbye is the hardest thing you think you'll ever have to do, but sometimes it's saying 'hello again' that breaks you down and makes you the most vulnerable person you'll ever know. Sometimes change is too much to bear, but most of the time change is the only thing saving your life."

This is just for you..

Khoya Khoya Chand Rehta Hai

My favourite song since childhood...and till now...Love this song like anything else..And I hope you love this one too...Especially for that person in my life about whom am so confused...!!! May you have all the peace and happiness in your life..

" I'm in a sea of illusion
Washed in confusion and pretence,
I thought that I was a winner
Now you weaken my defence
I feel the storm inside
There's so much I should say
But I can't find the way

I'm sick of looking in the mirror twice
When I need reminding who I am
You got those eyes that look right through me

You are the only one who hears my cries
You bring me from the darkness to the light
I'm swimming against the tide
You can calm the storm inside

These changes have to be violent
I have been silent for so long
You gave me back my own voice now
I have no choice but to go on

Tomorrow never comes
The past gets in the way
I'm stuck here and today?

..You can calm..

The Storm Inside..

The Storm Inside.. "

- The Storm Inside Lyrics by Laura Michelle Kelly

Starting off with this beautiful lyrics.

A song which describes to the phase am going through...

This basically is a song dedicated to the Almighty above..I long to have Him by my side..

Who knows where He is and whether at all He is looking at me..

But whatever might be I just hope that He comes to my rescue as fast He can..

Waiting for you Dear Lord !!..Come Soon!

A quote I loved very much..

“Have you ever been in love? Horrible isn't it? It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens up your heart and it means that someone can get inside you and mess you up. You build up all these defenses, you build up a whole suit of armor, so that nothing can hurt you, then one stupid person, no different from any other stupid person, wanders into your stupid life...You give them a piece of you. They didn't ask for it. They did something dumb one day, like kiss you or smile at you, and then your life isn't your own anymore. Love takes hostages. It gets inside you. It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness, so simple a phrase like 'maybe we should be just friends' turns into a glass splinter working its way into your heart. It hurts. Not just in the imagination. Not just in the mind. It's a soul-hurt, a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain. I hate love.”

Neil Gaiman quotes (English born American Novelist, Journalist, Screenwriter, Children's author and Comics writer of American Gods, amongst many others, b.1960)

So true are the words that had come out...Today at this day I stand a totally different person in the eyes of the cruel world that had made me change. I am a totally different person now. And I know that this time God will help me out of this sick world. Now ...NO ONE WILL HURT ME..NO ONE...

We all talk about loving our spouses, girlfriends and boyfriends..but do we really love them as we should?? Frankly to say, I've never ever seen anyone, till date, who loves someone unconditionally..with that purity..with that passion..with that innocence which should have been there between two hearts.

That two body one soul-wala baat..kisime nahi dekha hai.. So does that mean that we, in this fast paced life have forgotten to love others...I don't think so...We love our pets with the same passion and vigor..with that same innocence..cause we know that they will never deceive us..

False alarm of being in love, scared to get deceived, being obsessed is all the negative terms and actions that leads to such a poor state of affairs.

Open your heart ..open your soul.. open your eyes..GOD has been kind to most of us to give us five senses along with that other sense which makes them six senses. It is our duty to start using them before we lose ourselves in the hands of hatred and sorrow!!!!

If you love anyone..love unconditionally and never expect anything in return, cause even if you think of that..its not love. Love makes us strong and not weak.. If you are in true love then never will you crave for it. Cause it will turn a loser into a winner, a hopeless one into a fortuner.. a dying heart back to a living soul.. It has great power.. Never will it make a person fall down.. it will only make you rise rise and rise..burstling with power and strength.. Negative energy can never be into a person in true love and if its there that means he or she is in OBSESSION and not in LOVE - the difference of the two being like a hell and heaven difference.

So decide and make out if you are in love or obsession..if you are pointing towards the latter then ..: "Mamu..jitna jaldi ho sake..kalti marlo..warna pachchtaoge..!!!"

P.S : That does not mean that you will force yourself into doing the above mentioned points to show yourself that you are in true love..By doing this you will lie to yourself and not to others..to tell you in short words..you are deceiving yourself and there is no other fool ever to be found again!

Learning to LOVE YOURSELF.....

The first step to get all that you have always craved for, is to love yourself like holding an egg in your hand. Sounds crazy..but true. You have to be very careful and very loving while treating yourself. Cause as the song goes-

"Ek pal ka jeena fir to hai jana,

Taufa kya leke jaye ye dil to batana.

Khali haat aye the hum, khali haat jayenge.

Bass pyar ke do meethe bol jhilmilayenge.

To hass kyunki duniya ko hai hasana.

E mere dil tu gayeja..e aa e aa o aa e aa.."

So popular a song..but how many of us pause to understand the song...??? Maybe very few.

Many people out there fail to love themselves but still crave for someone to love them. Why? Why should we expect others to love us when we do not love ourselves at all?? Love yourself as no one will do it for you cause we also love others for a purpose... to fulfill our wants. A lover loves his or her love cause they want them to be with them forever. Reason because they do not want to be all alone in life craving for that perfect life. Parents love their children cause they want to take on their lives to fulfill their unaccomplished dreams or to have a family. Reason: Fear of loneliness. Likewise everyone in this world has some or the other stupid reasons to love others. Stupid selfish people that we are..!!! Living for others, making them happy are some ways to love yourself to pamper yourself. Why do you think that people keep pets..??? Specially now-a-days when life has become difficult. Its just to curtail loneliness. See we are not at all perfect as we boast to be.. The real thing being that its not possible how much ever we try.

I live and survive by making others happy and would like to tell everyone who has forgotten to love themselves. Love others dude.. you'll find greater happiness in doing so. Your heart will beat a lot more than it did. Make a person happy and you will find yourself to be the happiest person in this whole world. Happier than the richest person in this world- you'll feel as if you are the "King of the World!!! " No sorrow can ever touch you. Find your true passion, your motto, your right path and I promise that you will touch the sky. Forget people who tell you that you are not right, that you are a terrible person, an idiot, a mad man. 'YOU ARE SPECIAL' should be your ultimum. Remember always that people will try to suppress you to surpass you. But you should be tactful enough to know when to bypass and when to attack!!

You are a gift by yourself. No one can become you. Its only you.. a special child of the ALMIGHTY

Be happy and grateful to whatever you have as you should always remember that there are lots and lots of people out there who has aweful life than you, but still they never forget to SMILE.

LOVE YOURSELF FOR WHAT YOU ARE AND WHAT YOU CAN BE.

STRIVE TO BECOME THAT PERSON THAT YOU WISH TO BE - HAPPY AND GAY

Aur agar phir bhi tumhe akela lage to 'Main Hoon Na', cause everytime I help you out, I love myself more and more...!!