Norman cousins
In recent times I have been into acute depression. Yes , I am not scared to tell that I'm into therapy. Reason are many. Hard to discuss. And too hard to say since it makes me broken to even think about it.
People, they say so much , they do so much , they feel so much but one thing that they forget to do is to communicate with each other. Which ultimately leads us to anxiety, depression and maybe heart aches .
These 12 months have been horrible to me . Even horrible to my parents and friends who were forced to wake up since I was restless. I couldn't breathe, could not eat , could not focus . I was in much pain. At times I thought the unthinkable . At times I thought that I would just cut my heart off because it pains so much.
I could not tell the root of my pain anything since I was scared that if the root decides to uproot themselves then where will I be . Everyday I just saw and came to know things that made me out of control and do things which God forbid, permanently damaged me .
It still pains. It still does.
--- Alive and battling
Alice in Wonderland
