Sunday, December 31, 2017

Forgotten a Life that we are supposed to live...

Do not know when I had gone through this site of mine . Created this way back- I don't even know when!! But I had created this for a purpose. I will tell you the story of it.. Interested !! If not then you always have the option to move on.. But just give it a try listening to me.. :) I created this Blog so that maybe I pen down or rather type down my feelings thoughts into this .. and feel better and my nosy Mom does not have to find and read up my diary ! ;)

Today I feel so low !! ---- All because of a stupid person who is supposed to be my supervisor my boss who keeps on flushing down his toxic waste on me and I have to bear up with that awful smell!! :D Well I will keep on with it till the time I'm covered with it - just waiting for the right time to wash myself . I will surely treat myself with something nice .!

There has been so many things that has happened to me in these years.
The most beautiful things amongst which is a cute friend who is not Old as everyone thinks !! Just 4 years older to me and who has changed me so much that I want to redo myself and be happy once again leaving all my pain from my childhood behind me . There is nothing which he doesn't know about me and there's nothing that I don't know about him  be it the worst parts of his life which is supposedly not to be shared with anyone We share a beautiful relation of love and friendship , a bond that is easily not broken even by harsh winds and wild storms !!

People come and ask me Why HIM ?? There are so many options around you !! Look at yourself !! Smart beautiful and independent !! Why you have lots of options Just look around

I say ! Options??? Who needs them !! I've got the beautiful person if not the best!!
And God has shown me the path ! And I thank him a ton !

Coming back to my post ! We all in our daily life have been doing or experiencing so much pain or problems . I have been in my childhood been taught that the problems in your life is not to be shared
I have had problems with my so called family member not mother father but someone else and my mom supposedly knew about It but she kept on saying that you should not speak out or else "Their Life" might get ransacked and , just hold on... It will be all because of me !! How beautiful !
I had this Boss and an office life which I have begun to dislike ( its a very small word - right word would be fearful, scared to my tits bits ) I have told my mom about it  , she started being panicky !!
Not her fault , its the fault of the environment where she has been all these life

I love her and dad so much - my fault ?? Cannot express !
My mom has a problem in the way that I lead my life .. even my sis - not their fault .. again they don't understand the essence of it ! I completely respect it . Its their concern that keeps them worried and why not !! I have not done all things good and my fault is that I did not try to stop my wrong doings to come infront of my parents ! I could had easily but did not . But that does not mean that am wrong in everything




As rightfully said what have I done in these years !! Nothing at all ! I want to mark my life . I have decided that Ill lead my life according to my own terms and conditions and will lead it to the best of my capability !

I will make use of myself in building up my own Life that I am supposed to live and not crib for a second !

That I promise myself and I know God will be there beside me always !
Love you !! :)))

Sunday, August 17, 2014

MONSOON ...The Boon From Above !!!

Ever Drenched completely under the chilling refreshing showers of Mother Nature ?? The drops that pour acts as a stress buster.. The fresh sight all around makes you feel just Right !!.. The black clouds above the sky ..the water all around...

The mind rides to the thought , why do people refer MONSOON as grey days ? I believe monsoon is the most romantic of all the seasons ..just the smell of the Wet soil, the drizzle , makes your heart want to love endlessly. Or the inexplicably beautiful feeling of dancing to the rhythm of the falling rain .Look out of the window, its pouring love, go on and take your sweetheart's hand , walk in the rain and let the clouds play the Cupid ...



How could we take no notice of those retro styled plastered but bewitchingly beautiful buildings wet in heaven's rhythm, standing right there as a witness of the journey of this city from Calcutta to Kolkata. 

As I stole a glance at the resplendent sky dappled with dark clouds and a colossal drop lands on my face, soon the entire sky descending . Ever closed your eyes and felt crystal drops on your face ? Its utterly mystical and mesmerizing...Everything so imperfect yet so beautiful !! 





ENJOY THE MAGIC OF THE MONSOON !!! Happy Drenching !!  

Saturday, February 1, 2014

Thursday, December 12, 2013

Stuck with Cupid's ARROW !!!!! OOoooOOOOoooo...Bechare !!!


Once upon a time, there was a little girl who lived in a village near the forest.  Whenever she went out, the little girl wore a red riding cloak, so everyone in the village called her Little Red Riding Hood.
One morning, Little Red Riding Hood asked her mother if she could go to visit her grandmother as it had been awhile since they'd seen each other.
"That's a good idea," her mother said.  So they packed a nice basket for Little Red Riding Hood to take to her grandmother.
When the basket was ready, the little girl put on her red cloak and kissed her mother goodbye.
"Remember, go straight to Grandma's house," her mother cautioned.  "Don't dawdle along the way and please don't talk to strangers!  The woods are dangerous."
"Don't worry, mommy," said Little Red Riding Hood, "I'll be careful."
But when Little Red Riding Hood noticed some lovely flowers in the woods, she forgot her promise to her mother.  She picked a few, watched the butterflies flit about for awhile, listened to the frogs croaking and then picked a few more. 
Little Red Riding Hood was enjoying the warm summer day so much, that she didn't notice a dark shadow approaching out of the forest behind her...The BIG Bad Wolf !!!! :(( In this case , The Big BAD Cupid !!! It stuck her at the back ... Ouuch !!!! 

The little girl or else is supposedly all the young girls and boys who have fallen in love by the Cupid's blow on their back but seems that the Cupid had forgotten to struck the other arrow around, resulting in sheer outbreak of Heart Breaks !

As Oscar Wilde says ," The heart was made to be broken " :o , we should all enjoy what life has and will be having in store for you , cause ultimately get this in your head that Whatever it is you should put this into your head that whatever it is God will have something more in store for you...may be another arrow at your back !!!! :P:P 
In short , Picture abhi baki hai mere dost !!! :))

Saturday, November 23, 2013

Lehren

"Kabhie Kabhie inn Lehron ko dekhkar mann me khayal ata hai
Kyon ye Sahil se takrakar chali jate hai...
Karti hai ye Sahil se bewafai ya Sagar se wafa nibhati hai...!!!"



Monday, October 15, 2012

What Is True What is not True...

"You will have bad times,
but they will always
wake you up to the stuff
you weren’t paying attention to."

-Robin Williams



 I am living in a world of Illusion and hate to be a Part of Reality as I know that when I wake up I will find the ugly truths of Life....My Life....

I know that whatever is happening around me is not at par with my belief. But still.... I would always like to believe that I am living happily in my own sweet world..
A world where everyone is happy and jolly
A world where dreams and wishes come true
A world where I am with my LOVE
No one to stare...No one to conspire...No one to argue...No one to tell me that I am wrong...
Just me and my dreams of fulfillment....

Is there any such world...where there is love overpowering hatred
A world where Love is all that we give each other
A world where GOD prevails

Our whole life consists of decision making.
What is right and what is wrong and accordingly make choices..
But who decides what is right and what is wrong..???
One of my friend truly declares that there is nothing wrong in anything we do... It just needs to be at par with our happiness...
I say happiness YES...but should be longterm happiness...

From my childhood days I have always dreamt of TRUE love

Do not know whether I had achieved that or not but there are certain impurities with them too...

Society : Give a damn to them... I know my decision can affect others as well... but we also have to understand that their decision also can affect our lives in a much worst ways...

If there is love there is always a way...
Always a better future ....Always a key that will open up the rusted door ...The door that can end hatred within people... A light that will destroy the evilness that prevails within the souls of the 'learned'

Choices as rightly said , is humanly. All depends on an individual.

As Master  Hookway rightly told Po....

"Quit ??? Don't QUIT....
Noodles dont noodles..
You are too concerned with what was and what will be ...
There is a saying ...

Yesterday is History...Tomorrow is a Mystery but Today is a Gift...that is why it is called a PRESENT...!!!"

Wake up my Friend...Wake up and Find your Destiny !!!!

Lastly, a quotation that touched a part of me...

"We gallop through our lives like circus performers balancing on two speeding side-by-side horses-one foot is on the horse called “fate” the other on the horse called “free will”. And the question you have to ask everyday is, Which horse is which? Which horse do I need to stop worrying about because it’s not under my control, and which do I need to steer with concentrated effort?  "

Elizabeth Gilbert


Sunday, October 14, 2012

My ODD Feelings...


Meri kismat ke Har ek panne pe
Mere jeete ji Baad marne ke
Mere har ek kal Har ek lamhe mein
Tu likh de mera use

Har kahani mein Saare kisson mein
Dil ki duniya ke Sacche rishton mein
Zindagani ke Saare hisson me
Tu likh de mera use


Aye khuda aye khuda Jab bana uska hi bana

Uska hoon us mein hoon usse hoon usi ka Rehne de..
Main toh pyasa hoon hai dariya wo zariya woh jeene Ka mere
Mujhe ghar de gali de shehar de usi ke Naam ke
Kadam yeh chalen ya ruken ab usi ke Vaaste
Dil mujhe de agar Dard de uska par
Uski ho woh haseen Gunje jo mera ghar


Aye khuda aye khuda Jab bana uska hi bana


Mere hisse ki khushi ko haseen ko tu chahe Aadaha kar..
Chahe lele tu meri zindagi par ye mujhse Vaada kar
Uske ashkon pe gumon pe dukhon pe har uske Zakhm par
Haq mera hi rahe har jagah har ghadi haan Umar bhar
Ab fakht ho yahi Woh rahe mujh mein hi
Woh juda kehne ko Bichdde na par kabhi

Aye khuda aye khuda Jab bana uska hi bana



Meri kismat ke Har ek panne pe
Mere jeete ji Baad marne ke
Mere har ek kal Har ek lamhe mein
Tu likh de mera use 



Aye khuda khuda khuda
O… khuda..


*Courtesy for my feelings - 1920, Evil Returns