..CAGED UP..

Days pass by.. and she does not know where was she going to... May be this is the end of HER as a person.. She does not have the strength anymore to move on.. Everything seems to have come to an end... her wishes..her dreams.. her belief.. All she wanted was to hallucinate her dreams just to let this end be peaceful.. mind destruction..is all that she is thinking of and is doing quite well by now...She just needs to throw past all the things that makes her weak and which stops her from doing things which she needs to do...

Sometimes when she looks at her present life..she feels she has lost so much..her smiles her laughter..her silly jokes...her shouting...her silly silly and really silly burst out of emotions...her madness...her wildness...everything...she feels caged up in a dark room where the only person that seems alive with her is her heart...her own self...and her faith..she does not know where is she going..where is that person sitting above is leading her to...but still she has that faith on which she can believe that person sitting above and carefully watching her....
Somewhere down there in her heart she knows its all turning up to be a mess...but what can she do..All the dreams have been shattered...she has no more wishes other than the fulfillment of her Lord's wish..that's it..then the end will she devour peacefully...JUST PEACEFULLY...

Being A Puppet..!!!!

I hate this phase when all around you are not made but forced to believe that you cannot do things on your own but need support agents. Whatever these agents think is the truth..!! Today, if I get married I will be free, otherwise I have no right to move on independently in Life.   My views, my decision plays no importance in my life. This on the other can be called Puppet Ministry, a ministry from which a person does not and cannot have independence but can expect a lifelong imprisonment.!!! Bullshit thoughts, bullshit ideas, bullshit people all around. If their decisions were not wrong then they could have curtailed many bad decisions in life about which they do not know till date. The bad becomes worse, igniting flames of intolerance into my heart and life; but look at them!!! They are unaware!! And they feel whatever they have done were the best that could have ever have happened. I do not hate my Life! But I want to lead and live it my way...my rules...my decision... I don not want to be a puppet in their hands. Already I have been made a puppet in the hand of God Himself.. Now I do not want to be any person's puppet. True , when they say that its bad to be good around here...cause when you are good, you trust endlessly, you forgive easily and you love unconditionally!!! People here are scavengers. And its really hard for a Herbivore to be what they are. They too have to be what it needs to be. A bad person or a vamp as they say. Otherwise people will kill you...A selfish world it is....

:D:D!!!!!LaUgH LaUgH LaUgH & LaUgH....!!!!!:D:D

Aha...
Many days have passed by...and well I have not been able to pen down ...err..write down or else type down my thoughts on this forum....

To all my fiends who keep on thinking or wondering what am I upto these days....well my answer to them would be that am upto nothing recently...But many things....well my first dream goes something like this....To enjoy my life ekdum Fultoo masti se....which Ive always dreamt of doing...[but have not been able to lately!] Next...to earn a lottttt of money ....that too through shear hard work of me...and myself...:P

And ahh!!!

No persons allowed to go home from my life with a sad face....!!! Sohini was the other name for cheerful and always be...My motto in life was and will be living for others...I make a resolution of forgiving each and everyone who were the cause of my depression for so many years....May you all be in peace..! And always you are welcome to call me and wish me a gr8 New Year ahead!!!





 To my friends I love you all a lot...!!


And thanks for always being a sweet heart! Love you all...

And to people who could'nt understand me...Better luck next year !!! :D:D:D

I will be and am always happy....

Last but bot the least ...a small paragraph which I really liked and many people would already have seen it flashing on my blog....but those who've missed it out...here's once again the special biggg quotation from my blog!!!!

"“Maybe if I share the path I walk then a little more of your pain will vanish. I want you to heal, whoever you are. I don't care what pain you've brought the world, I just want yours to subside. No matter what, your path is yours. Dont follow misery or worry. Devote every moment of your life to improving your dreams. Love your world. Cherish the good you do. Let go of hatred. Dream of love.”"

"I am no one special. Just a common man with common thoughts. There are no monuments dedicated to me and my name will soon be forgotten. But in one respect I have succeeded as gloriously as anyone who ever lived. I've loved another with all my heart and soul and for me that has always been enough."

~ from the movie..The Notebook....

 

MY LIFE SO FAR !!!! :))

I don’t know what has happened…Everything has come to an end it seems!!! Am lost! Totally lost! I find myself back to the past; a place where it was difficult to believe people around. Time is the only thing which I do not have at this point of my life. Everyone stabbing at the back unknowingly. Was I wrong in making decisions. It is like that I know that I have done a mistake , but am not sorry for that! I feel that if I have done any good to that person its not a mistake from my end and God made me do that cause he had chosen me to change some things of a person desperate of HELP..

I have lost everything in hand….including myself….my confidence…my life…my respect…my love for others…and most importantly, my Laughter and Smile!

                Today ,all I do is slog and work to keep myself busy in my life so as to forget things which I need to..I cannot get back my life , my place, my time back…but can only pray so as to keep myself happy !

                Am scared to dedicate my whole life to a person, to marry.

I believe no one can love you and care for you more than you can do to yourself! Today everyone is wary of themselves!

                That love I wanted , couldn’t be found by me! Am lonely and a lonesome!!!  But still I BELIEVE IN LOVE !!!

PS. Do not think that I have become a Devdas !!!!!!! :P 

Well I found this when I was looking for suitable pictures!!! And really liked it!!! :D:D

I kind of like the solitude that am in....!!!!  :D

LAST BREATH

From those around I hear a Cry,                                                      A muffled sob, a Hopeless sigh,                                                    I hear their footsteps leaving slow,                                                   And then I know my soul must Fly!                                                       A chilly wind begins to blow,                                                    Within my soul, from Head to Toe,                                                  And then, Last Breath escapes my lips,                                                     It's Time to leave. And I must Go!                                                          So, it is True (But it's too Late)                                                 They said: Each soul has its Given Date,                                                    When it must leave its body's core,                                                       And meet with its Eternal Fate.

                                                    Oh mark the words that I do say,
                                            Who knows, Tomorrow could be your Day,
                                                   At last, it comes to Heaven or Hell
                                                   Decide which now, Do NOT delay !
                                                     Come on my brothers let's pray
                                                      Decide which now, do not delay ....

Oh God! Oh God! I cannot see! 

My eyes are Blind! Am I still Me

Or has my soul been led astray,

And forced to pay a Priceless Fee

Alas to Dust we all return,

Some shall rejoice, while others burn

If only I knew that before

The line grew short and came my Turn!

And now, as beneath the soil 

They lay me with my records flawed

They cry not knowing that I cry worse,

For they go home and I face my GOD! 

                                                   Oh mark the words that I do say,
                                            Who knows, Tomorrow could be your Day,
                                                   At last, it comes to Heaven or Hell
                                                   Decide which now, Do NOT delay !
                                                     Come on my brothers let's pray
                                                      Decide which now, do not delay .... 

..LoVe DiS sOnG fOr MaNy ReAsOnS..

Jab jab tere paas main aaya, Ik sukoon mila
Jise main tha bhoolta aaya, Wo wajood mila
Jab aaye mausam gham ke, Tujhe yaad kiya
Jab sehme tanhapan se, Tujhe yaad kiya

..DIL... Sambhal ja zara
Phir mohabbat karne chala hai tu
Dil yahin ruk jaa zara
Phir mohabbat karne chala hai tu

Aisa kyun kar hua janu naa
Main janu naa..
Dil sambhal ja zara
Phir mohabbat karne chala hai tu
Dil yahin ruk ja zara
Phir mohabbat karne chala hai tu

Jis raah pe, hai ghar tera
Aksar wahan se, haan main hoon guzra
shayad yahin dil mein raha
Tu mujh ko mil jaye, Kya pata...

Kya hai yeh silsala
Janu naa, Main janu naa
Dil sambhal ja zara
Phir mohabbat karne chala hai tu
Dil yahin ruk ja zara
Phir mohabbat karne chala hai tu

Kuch bhi nahi Jab darmayaan
Phir kyun hai dil, tere hi khwaab bunta
Chaha ki de, tujhko bhula
Par yeh bhi mumkin ho na sakaa...
Kya hai yeh maamla, Janu naa
Main janu naa

Dil sambhal ja zara
Phir mohabbat karne chala hai tu
Dil yahin ruk ja zara
Phir mohabbat karne chala hai tu
Dil sambhal ja zara
Phir mohabbat karne chala hai tu

[ song : Phir Mohabbat ; Murder2 : 2011 ]